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**I just don’t understand how people are sooo afraid to be their own person. I mean, who cares what other people think? Seriously. I’m so frustrated lately with people who do things just because other people are doing them. It’s just so annoying seeing all these FAKE people out there…(I’m sorry if this is offending anybody). I’m serious though…

I hate how nowadays, barely anyone is real anymore. What I mean by real is, well, people with personality…their own personality, and people who don’t just go along with something…people that have an opinion(s), etc… I mean, I don’t know about anyone else, but right away I can tell when a person is fake. I don’t know what it is about them, but normally there is just something fishy about the certain individual. I mean…I’ve realized this - Most of my “friends” have turned out to be fake. Like…many of them have actually done a really good job of pretending….pretending to be my friend…but in reality, they were just fake people, who ended up screwing me over and hurting me over and over again. I can’t even count how many times my so-called “friends” turned out to be fake, but made me think for the longest time that they were real…and fun to hang around. Come on people, in reality…well at least in this present time, it’s hard to find real, true friends…ones that won’t screw you over, and make you feel like shit, and like you’re worthless and make you cry over and over again. Some make friends to get friends and to get something from those "friends"

Let’s just say I can count the number of true friends that I have on a couple of fingers…
*You know who you guys are…thanks for never screwing me over like everyone else and always being there for me.*

Happy V Day!

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My Love for You

The extent to which I love you cannot be captured in words or in a phrase.

It is not possible to count everything I love about you by any number.

The depths in which my soul holds you close could not be measured in feet or any distance traveled.

There is no name, not even the most perfect of names that could justify the love expressed in what you mean to me.

There are not enough words in existence to describe what I feel when you hold me tight and gaze into my eyes.

It is not possible to have a phrase that could capture the essence of my hearts desire when you are with me.

But if there were a number, it would be infinity.

If there were a distance, it would be endless.

If there were name, it would be true love.

If there were words, they would be burning passion.

And if there were a phrase, it would be I love you in everything that I am.

-Jan Ashlee

Stubborn Mind... Foolish Heart

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Every day my mind asks me what I am doing…

Why am I staying in this dead end relationship?

But every night when I go home to my lonely room

My heart takes over and before I know it I am at your door.

Just one more chance to touch you, to look into those brown eyes, just one more chance to say that I love you, to show you that I love you…

I know in my mind that I am not what you want…

If I was, you would be mine… but you aren’t…

If I was, then you would see the pain that you are putting my heart through and you would show me you love me…

If I was, then you would promise me forever and mean it…
But my foolish heart just refuses to move on…

I think during the day that I am going to walk away… that I am going to throw myself into seeing other people and get over you; but at night, my heart breaks at the thought of being in anyone’s arms but yours… at night my heart rules and my head is put to sleep.

During the day I am depressed and disappointed in myself for being weak and staying with you…
But at night it is the only place I can be…

My heart keeps saying tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow… tomorrow will be the day that I will walk away… I storm to your room all full of righteous indignation for you stringing me along… telling myself that I am going to rip in to you and tell you to KISS MY ASS!!! Then you walk through your door and all my anger just melts at the sight of you… All my righteous indignation is put to rest as I listen to your day… All my hurt burns away in the strength of the love I have for you…

I don’t know that I will always be this way… I certainly hope not…

Sometimes I pray that you will run from me… that you will shove me aside and break my heart completely so that I can heal… but for now… my heart breaks with the rising sun and heals with the setting of it… and I am lost in you…

Lost in your smile, in your eyes, in your life and your problems, in your issues and complaints… I love you far more than I love myself and so I suffer through the unanswered questions and the unrequited love and the agony of being last in your life… the agony of knowing that my heart is your home but yours is not mine…

It does me no good to complain because this is a self made hell and if I was half the man I ought to be I would walk away… but my heart… my ever hopeful, ever naïve, ever longing heart…. Won’t let me…

I love you. totally, unconditionally… I love you and it eat's me bit by bit.

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"When you break up with someone you move on. You don't really want to move on... but you have to because they don't give you any choice."

Jan Ashlee

It's Hard to Let Go

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wow i don't know what to say! all the things i've gone through, well... all i can say is that you should not give all your trust, your love and your everything to the person you loved the most. though it seems that you can't live without that person. it would protect you from being hurt to the extent that no matter how you cry it all out and try to get out from that unexplainable pain, it seems that death is the only way out. that is what i feel when i first handled my broken heart. it's really hard to move on and to let go. it's just easy to say but really hard to do.

I am me,

Jan Ashlee

Year 2008

My Top 10 Songs of 2008

1. I kissed A Girl (And I Liked It) - Katy Perry

2. No Air - Jordin Sparks and Chris Brown

3. Take A Bow - Rihanna

4. Better In Time - Leona Lewis

5. Paper Planes - MIA

6. Bleeding Love - Leona Lewis

7. That's What You Get - Paramore

8. Little Miss Obsessive - Ashlee Simpson

9. Like Youll Never See Me Again - Alicia Keys

10. The Man That Can't Be Moved - The Script

Band of the Year: Paramore

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Buoyed by the popular singles "Misery Business," "crushcrushcrush," and "That's What You Get," Riot! turned Paramore into industry darlings, going platinum within its first 13 months of release and earning the band a Grammy nomination for Best New Artist. The group toured exhaustively in support of the record, even landing a two-month jaunt across the continental U.S. with their idols Jimmy Eat World. Meanwhile, Paramore found time to contribute two songs to the Twilight soundtrack, including the Top 40 single "Decode." A live album entitled The Final Riot! was released several weeks after the Twilight soundtrack, capturing the band's energy as a live act and concluding its lengthy tour.

Male Artist of the Year: Chris Brown

Brown's 2007 release "Exclusive" comes in at No. 13 on the year-end Top Billboard 200 Albums recap, while he places five titles on the Hot 100 Songs tally: "No Air" (his duet with Jordin Sparks at No. 6), "With You" (No. 9), "Forever" (No. 10), "Kiss Kiss" (featuring T-Pain at No. 19) and "Get Like Me" (David Banner featuring Brown at No. 66).

This is only the fourth time one artist has notched three singles in the top 10 of the year-end songs list. The last time was in 1994, when Ace of Base did the trick with "The Sign" (No. 1), "All That She Wants" (No. 9) and "Don't Turn Around" (No. 10). Before that, the Bee Gees did it in 1978 and Elvis Presley shook up the list in 1956.

Female Artist of the year: Alicia Keys

Billboard issued its Year-End Charts and from the list, it is revealed Alicia Keys' "As I Am" lands atop on Top 10 Albums. Josh Groban's "Noel" and Lil Wayne's "Tha Carter III" follow on the chart at number two and three respectively.

Beside securing number one on Top 10 Albums, Alicia also puts her song "No One" on the top spot of Top 10 Most-Listened-To Radio Songs. Beating down such hit singles, as Flo Rida's "Low", Leona Lewis' "Bleeding Love" and Timbaland's "Apologize" featuring OneRepublic, the single has, according to Nielsen SoundScan, drawn 3.08 billion radio listeners between November 12, 2007 through November 16, 2008.

New Artist of the year: Leona Lewis and Katy Perry

Her debut single, "UR So Gay," generated some online buzz with its mischievous lyrics and accompanying music video. However, "I Kissed a Girl" proved to be her true breakthrough single, topping the charts in 20 countries and pushing its accompanying album, 2008's One of the Boys, into the Top Ten in America. Perry supported her debut by joining the Warped Tour that summer and appearing in an episode of The Young and the Restless. Meanwhile, "Hot N Cold" became her second number one hit.

Lewis auditioned for The X Factor in the summer of 2006 and won the third series competition in December of that year. Lewis' debut single, a soulful cover of Kelly Clarkson's "A Moment Like This" (Clarkson's own debut American Idol showcase single), was the number one single in the U.K. at the turn of the year, including the coveted "Christmas Number One." Along with her TV-driven U.K. success, Leona Lewis signed an American recording deal with Clive Davis' J Records in February 2007. By the end of the year, she had launched her debut album, Spirit, in England, and watched it go to the top of the charts (along with the single "Bleeding Love"). The American release followed in 2008, with similar success.

Album of the year: One of the Boys - Katy Perry

Her album has more fun with gender-confused dating among high-maintenance twentysomethings—bicurious straight girls, boys who change their minds like girls, girls you can’t afford, tomboys who shave their legs so you’ll make out with them. Perry’s creative-writing-class punch lines don’t always justify her self-congratulatory drag-queen tone. But she hiccups quirkily enough, and myriad big-name producers (from Dr. Luke to Glen Ballard) keep the new-wave synth hooks hopping. “Hot N Cold” shamelessly camps up the aerobic electro of Cher’s “Believe.” When tempos slow and the sarcastic mood turns sincere, things bland out—but those moments are rare, and “Lost” feels outer-space-lonely enough to pull off its melancholy.Perry brings a unique and clever sense of fun and humor to this CD, all the while managing to create stories that you want to hear again and again. Rebellion aside, don’t assume that her debut is one dimensional. The album is chalk full of beats that are sure to have you running to the dance floor and auditioning for American Idol in your mirror, but it also brings with it a sincerity and depth found in the softer songs.

Movie of the year: Wall - E

The gorgeous, wordless first half has the comic grandeur of a Chaplin film; the second half is a biting satire of commercialism that's far more effective than Michael Moore ever was. And yet at its root this is simply a romance, achingly tender and true, about a lonely little robot and his search for love. Breathtaking in its beauty, scope, intelligence and charm, 'WALL-E' isn't just a Pixar masterpiece -- it's a masterpiece, period.

Best Comeback: Britney Spears

Britney Spears looked a sure-fire LOSER when she went into meltdown and ended up under psychiatric assessment in January as the battle for custody of her kids took its toll. But she ends the year a WINNER – perhaps the biggest of all – for her astonishing, Lazarus-style comeback.

info from:

http://www.billboard.com/

Holiday Glory

Sem break!! Holiday!! At last, I can breath for a while.... I miss my blogsite, I have a lot to
talk about I dn't even know where to start, hopefuly Ill get a new laptop this coming January.

Article 1

X-mas is here, can you feel it? I spent a big amount of money reluctantly shopping gifts for my friends,
relatives and inaanaks. My frustrating Santa Dreams is really awful.

Emptied bank accounts, emptied wallet, Oh Lord, I can really feel it.

Article 2

It's December and it's the time of the year when big music superstars release their
albums, this includes: Beyonce, Kanye West, Britney Spears etc.

Speaking of Britney It's nice to know that she's back with a number 1 album "Circus" A lot of music Moguls claims that it is the best comeback of all time, what can you say??

BTW, I got the new Kyla "Heart to Heart" Album. Can somebody get me the Amy Winehouse repackaged album "Frank"? (I wish)

Article 3

Has anyone seen the movie "Quarantine"? I went into this movie with fairly vague expectations - however I am a fan of scary movies, and not to mention a big fan of Jennifer Carpenter.

Quarantine is a remake of the 2007 Spanish picture REC where a news reporter and her cameraman find themselves tagging along on a rescue call with some police as ride alongs and get quite a bit more a story than they bargain for.
Seems like some nasty experiments which speed up the rabies disease have gotten out of the laboratory. It's that distress call that Jennifer Carpenter and Steve Harris are answering. When they get in there, they can't get out and neither can any of the residents. They've been quarantined by the CDC.

This movie made me physically sick. The content of the movie was what I expected, sort of...but the constant shaking and moving of the camera throughout the ENTIRE MOVIE caused me to become nauseated with a headache.try it. scary. funny and stressful.

How bout the MMFF movies?? well, what can I expect?

Article 4

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My holiday Season LSS? Leona’s new single, "Run"

"Run" is a cover of the Snow Patrol song, It became the UK's fastest-selling digital release ever, selling 69,244 copies in just two days.

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Leona Lewis Run Music Video

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Actually, I do have one reservation about this version. I’ve sat down and listened to the Snow Patrol version, and I’ve listened to the BBC Live Lounge version. My bone of contention with this version is how overblown the whole production is. It starts off nice and subtle, but by the end, there are children’s choirs, massive orchestra, and I distinctly heard the clank of a kitchen sink.

Still, in the midst of it all is Leona’s beautiful voice. She manages to swing between whispering, delicate vocals in the intro to powerful during the climax of the song. And she does it effortlessly.

Simon would remind us that she’s Britain’s hottest vocal talent right now, and for once he wouldn’t be blowing smoke up our asses. Run is a timely reminder that Leona is the X Factor contestant to beat, even two years later.

Happy Holidays!!
Enjoy!!

Jan Ashlee

Im still busy... (so much)

Just seen "Twilight" recently... makes me want to live in "Forks Town"

I loved this movie for the movie it was, nothing more. If you try and compare this movie to the book, of course you're going to end up hating the movie, because the book is, by far, way better. First of all, the movie does start off kind of slow. It's the type of film where they expect you to know everything about the story line in the first 10-15 minutes of the movie. It also does get kind of boring at parts, and some performances could've been better in many ways, but still, in my opinion, this movie indeed rocked. The characters were very well established, the fight/suspense scenes were cool and exciting, and I even began to shed a few tears with the every now and then romance.

All in all, I don't see how anyone can flat out hate this movie. It was very fun and entertaining and although it didn't "live up" to the book, it did a very good job, and to me, it was the best it could be without going too far into necessary details and focusing too much on describing each individual character perfectly. Great movie, needs a little bit more respect than it gets.

Anyway, Xmas is coming....keep your gifts coming too :) Haaaay.....Im sooo busy now.

Mabilisang review lang to,

Jan Ashlee

Holiday

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Unfortunately, my Laptop went on a holiday and I don't know when it will be back, so here I am in one of the computer shops that charges you per min of your broadband usage, and so Im gonna be quick since I only have a hundred bill on my pocket. hehe. ^-^

Article 1:

My close friend "Beejane" gave birth to a very gorgeous baby girl.... and of course I am one of the ninong, sometimes I wish my friends will stop producing offsprings to prevent me from having a long "Inaanak" list.

Article 2:

New job means New friends! I met two lovely ladies. Jessica is a shy and cute girl (of course she's crazy also, hindi lang halata) and Emji, three words to describe her? Crazy.Sexy.Cool

Together, we have a goal to have fun and errr, destroy the Earth?

I love y'all

Article 3:

I started playing tennis again. I have a new coach, a new raquet and tennis shoes. Im all set up to conquer Wimbledon hehe. ^_^

section 1: Jelena Jankovic, the Serbian babe is the new #1 WTA player. She's so consistent in her games that's why I love her. Go J.J!

Article 4:

Now is October and October means BEER! Octoberfest is ssso much fun! especially if it's happening at the roofdeck of your office. Thank you Transcom for bringing buckets of Beer in our office! at syempre mas masarap ang inuman kapag may bands to rock the night! Kjwan, MYMP, Imago, Fuse and Bamboo were all present to add fun troughout the party. Man, Im soo loving SMB hehe.

section 1: I l.o.v.e Kjwan! I reckon they are the best noypi band....

section 2: I l.o.v.e the free BBQ as well, unfortunately there's no free rice. (I think I'ts because of the rice crisis)

Article 5:

All saints Day is coming..... Too bad, kasi I have work on that day so I wont be able to visit my mum... tsk. tsk. I think she should visit me since I'ts more accessible naman for her eh. (Mum, wherever you are, Im just kiddin ok?) I love you.... you know that. ^_^

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****I'll Be Back! and so is my laptop.... (I think he's in Maldives)

Sleep Apnea

I have a sleep apnea.... I thought It was not that serious.... Often, people with sleep apnea don't know they have it. They're not aware that their breathing stops and starts many times while they're sleeping. Family members or bed partners usually are the first to notice signs of sleep apnea. I posted this for you to be aware of this not-so-silent killer.

What Is Sleep Apnea?

Sleep apnea is a common disorder in which you have one or more pauses in breathing or shallow breaths while you sleep.

Breathing pauses can last from a few seconds to minutes. They often occur 5 to 30 times or more an hour. Typically, normal breathing then starts again, sometimes with a loud snort or choking sound.

Sleep apnea usually is a chronic (ongoing) condition that disrupts your sleep 3 or more nights each week. You often move out of deep sleep and into light sleep when your breathing pauses or becomes shallow.

This results in poor sleep quality that makes you tired during the day. Sleep apnea is one of the leading causes of excessive daytime sleepiness.

Untreated sleep apnea can:

Increase the risk for high blood pressure, heart attack, stroke, obesity, and diabetes

Increase the risk for or worsen heart failure

Make irregular heartbeats more likely

Increase the chance of having work-related or driving accidents

What Are the Signs and Symptoms of Sleep Apnea?

Major Signs and Symptoms

One of the most common signs of obstructive sleep apnea is loud and chronic (ongoing) snoring. Pauses may occur in the snoring. Choking or gasping may follow the pauses.

The snoring usually is loudest when you sleep on your back; it may be less noisy when you turn on your side. Snoring may not happen every night. Over time, the snoring may happen more often and get louder.

You're asleep when the snoring or gasping occurs. You will likely not know that you're having problems breathing or be able to judge how severe the problem is. Your family members or bed partner will often notice these problems before you do.

Not everyone who snores has sleep apnea.

Another common sign of sleep apnea is fighting sleepiness during the day, at work, or while driving. You may find yourself rapidly falling asleep during the quiet moments of the day when you're not active.

Other Signs and Symptoms

Others signs and symptoms of sleep apnea may include:

Morning headaches

Memory or learning problems and not being able to concentrate

Feeling irritable, depressed, or having mood swings or personality changes

Urination at night

A dry throat when you wake up

In children, sleep apnea can cause hyperactivity, poor school performance, and aggressiveness. Children who have sleep apnea also may have unusual sleeping positions, bedwetting, and may breathe through their mouths instead of their noses during the day.

Ghost Story

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Just wanna share this to you guys:

This story happened a few months ago along the Tagaytay Road. There was a guy who got left behind by a pack of mountain bikers. The group was large and he didn't bring a cellphone. He crashed his bike somewhere between Picnic Grove and DBP. To make things worse, a storm came in. So he walked. This guy was on the side of the road hitch hiking on a very dark night in the middle of a storm. The night passed slowly and no cars went by. The storm was so strong he could hardly see a few meters ahead of him.

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Suddenly, just before the junction going to Manila, he saw a car slowly looming, ghostlike, out of the gloom. It slowly crept toward him and stopped. It was raining hard, wind blowing all around, what would you do? Like you would, he got into the car and closed the door, then realized that there was nobody behind the wheel. The car slowly started moving again. The guy was terrified, too scared to think of jumping out and running. The guy saw that the car was slowly approaching a sharp curve. The guy started to pray, begging for his life; he was sure the ghost car would go off the road and he would plunge to his death, when just before the curve, a hand appeared through the window and turned the steering wheel, guiding the car safely around the bend. Terrified, the guy watched the hand reappear every time they reached a curve.

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Finally, the guy gathered his wits and leaped from the car and ran to the nearest place where there were houses.Wet and in shock, he went into a store and voice quavering, ordered two bottles of beer, and told the people about his horrible, supernatural experience. A silence enveloped everybody when they realized the guy was apparently sane and not drunk. About half an hour later two guys walked into the same store. One said to the other ........

"Yan! Yan yung tarantadong sumakay sa kotse habang nagtutulak tayo..."